Needed Advice

Ok, so I am home. I was planning on working but they never called and I kind of just want a break to rest!

Also, Christmas celebrations are beginning to get stressful! Why? What do I do? Here's what's going on...
1) Gonnerman celebration Wednesday night and Thursday in Des Moines
2) Mabrey celebration in Chicago with my family leaving Wednesday afternoon
3) Josh leaving to go to his grandparents' on Friday

I honestly don't want to miss either Gonnerman or Mabrey celebrations...
My plan to satisfy both would be to go to Josh's parents' on Wednesday night, call it an early night, and leave for Chicago on Thursday morning. I would also like to have someone accompany me in my drive (Josh) but it doesn't look like that is possible. If it was possible, then that would mean he would have to drive/ride in a car for a very long time. And I know he wouldn't be a fan of that. I just don't want to miss anything. I love Josh's family celebrations but haven't been to a Mabrey side Christmas for a long time. (Last year they held it during my finals week so I couldn't attend).

To make things worse, Josh's phone is dead and I can't ask him what he wants to do..........I just want a compromise.

Home.

I'm coming home tomorrow (technically today)! WOO HOO!

Finals are over. They were the worst finals I've had so far! And very very stressful! As of right now, I have a B+ and a B- and I have 2 more grades to come! Intermediate Accounting will most likely be my best grade! But wasn't it supposed to be the hardest class? Hmmm...I'm still pondering that one!

Thursday night (last night) Cedar Falls was dumped on. We got like at least a foot of snow! So, while I was on-call today, I went and shoveled out a bunch of cars including my own. I also climbed a mountain of snow and slid down it! It was a blast! I also checked out a bunch of people from the hall, ate a lasagna dinner with my staff, and other closing stuff!

I'm off to clean so I can then pack to GO HOME!!!!

Mumble Jumble...

So, it is officially 11 days until I come home for 2.5 weeks! WOO.

The only slight wrinkle in that time frame is finals...

They're only a slight wrinkle right? (Just say yes!) haha.

Yeah, I know, finals are going to be downright horrible this semester. I'm stressing out now. However, they could be worse. I have one final each day (Monday through Thursday). I could have multiple finals on any day. My only concern is that I am going to get worn down and I won't have the motivation to study at the end.

On another note, I need to come up with a better system to be organized. I am not succeeding right now. So, my plan is to get those black shelves that piece together. Then I can have an inbox for each class, RA stuff, committee stuff, NRHH stuff, and signs that need to be put up. And then maybe an URGENT to do box or something. That makes it 9 boxes....YIKES! haha.
I also think I am going to rearrange my room to make it work better. But I really like having my bed by the window. HMMM....

I have until Josh leaves for break to figure out what I want for Christmas. What happens when you don't have a wish list other than an external hard drive (and you've already given that wish to your parents). How do you come up with another needed item? I don't have room for another wanted item. I'm on a need-only basis right now. I could ask for a new purse, a new pair or jeans, a new pair of shoes? I don't know. A new sweater? An at home workout thing? Like a DVD I can put in and do in my room since I'm so well getting to the WRC. I just don't know. I wish I could ask for more hours in the day or someone to come clean! haha! But that is just a dream.

Moving on....

Lately, I thought I had all of next year planned out perfectly. Little did I know that my plans would stop dead in their tracks. My original plan was to run for VP of the Acct'g Club (and win). Then, when I got that position, most of my time would be taken by that so I wouldn't be able to be an RA. So, I would live at ROTH as a regular resident and be a desk assistant.
Well, I didn't get the VP position. So, now I do believe I am going to apply to be an RA out at ROTH. If I don't get that position, I will just live out there and hope to be a desk assistant. Maybe for one year I can just be a regular student. I don't know what will happen. All I know is that I really like ROTH and I want to be there. I've met some very cool people in my house this year and I want to flexibility of just being friends and not their RA. I love being an RA. If I don't continue to be an RA next year...I will most definitely be sad and a little lost at the end of the year. How do you go from being an RA for 2 years to just a resident? I guess I'll figure that out eventually.

On an almost ending note, Josh and I are doing really well. I still wish we had more time together. It's really difficult to balance everything and now with finals approaching it is going to be really hard for me. He's the pillow that you scream into when you don't know what else to do; similar to the one comfort food that you grab when you barely have time to think. But what do you do when that one person you lean on is in the same boat as you (the boat of stress from finals)? Do you just stand there and hug each other (because that's all I want to do right now)?

*SIGH*

Leavin' on a jet plane

So I'm packing getting ready to leave. Not quite on a jet plane but in an Impala. They're kind of close; right?

A little late yes. But I wanted to make sure to clean my fish tank and vacuum before I left. Mainly because when I get back, there won't be time to clean!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I'm going hhhooommmeee!!!!!!!!!

110

I just want to start by saying I will have been away from home for 110 days when I finally get home for Thanksgiving Break. Wow! I counted it while I was working in the office today! I am officially grounded to the building except for an hour and a half today and tomorrow (into Wednesday). I can't wait to leave but I have a lot of homework to do and really don't want to!

Also, my gift idea changed. I'm caving in but not for his birthday, just for Christmas! haha! I am done with his birthday gift (and it changed as well!) I'm excited to give it to him but don't know when I will!

Wednesday I will be going to my old work to close my bank account, depositing it into my other account and then going home, going to get my nails done sometime, and then chill time. I talked to my dad last night. Apparently my family bought a new tv? Ok, I guess Austin is pretty excited over the noise it makes when it turns on! haha. Whatever!

Thursday I will be going to the Machine Shed with my dad, sister, and brother. My mom works 2 twelve hour shifts (Wednesday and Thursday night) so she will be sleeping all of Thanksgiving Day. Then Thanksgiving night I'm going over to Josh's for dinner.

Friday I'M GOING SHOPPING!!!!!! Oh my goodness, I don't think I could be more excited. Unfortunately I need to buy 2 new pairs of jeans. One pair ripped and is officially in the garbage, and my other pair that I love OH SO MUCH is on its way to the garbage probably before Christmas. *sigh* Other than that, I have gifts to get!

Saturday is Josh's birthday (he's so old...23!!!! haha). For lunch I am going to my Grandparents' for Thanksgiving lunch! I haven't seen them for a very very long time...I can't remember the last time. Hmmm...

Then Sunday I will be packing and coming back up here!!! I'm on backup Sunday night so I have to be back in the building by 7pm. Such a busy busy break!!

On that note I should probably go do some homework and clean!

The Plan.

Ok, so I know this is far in advance however when you're an RA you have to think of the next year way in advance. Key reason: applications to return as an RA are due the first week of Spring Semester. Yeah, early right?

Well, I had an epiphany today on my way back from Cost Accounting. I had been thinking a lot about if I wanted to be an RA next year or not. I knew I wanted to be at ROTH next year because I like it a lot. So, my decision is to not be an RA next year. I will apply to live at ROTH and hopefully sweet talk Lisa into letting me have my own room (PLEASE!?!?!). Then, I will apply for a Desk Assistant position out there. I will continue to be involved in NRHH next year. I have submitted myself for nomination as Vice President of the UNI Accounting Club for 2009. I also plan to apply for SAA (Student Admissions Ambassador); they give the tours to new students and are a part of the Admissions office on campus. I also may have a little, non-constant job that I can't say right now due to the fact that I haven't been given permission to say it. (Confusing...I know!)

Surprisingly, I am really calm about this decision. I believe it will help with my stress level, I will be able to take a full load of classes and focus on them more. I will also be able to spend more time with Josh and not have to worry about "Oh, well I'm on call that night so...." I have thoroughly enjoyed my time as an RA. I will probably cry when I leave, however I believe it will be best. AND I'll be able to end it on a good note. If I wouldn't have returned for this year, I would have ended it on a sour note, but after this year...I will have some amazing memories to last my whole life and some amazing friends to remember them with!

Now, I register for classes tomorrow morning.
I am registering for:
Intermediate Accounting II (major class)
Accounting Information Systems (major class)
Organizational Management (business core class)
Operations Management (business core class)
Organizational Psychology (certificate class)

which reminds me to add that...I am adding a certificate to my major; Industrial and Organizational Psychology

As I continue to ramble, here is a link to one thing that I will be creating while I am here over Thanksgiving:

3D Paper Snowflake

I will also be making a blanket...for someone's birthday. but sshhhh!!! I haven't even hinted at it which is pretty incredible for me! Gators on one side and Hawkeyes on the other!

Ok, that's it for now! I'll leave you with some pictures Josh and I took for our 5 year anniversary.

Turkey Day and Shopping

9 days





9 hours






10 minutes






I can't wait to go home!!!!!!!!




Josh is going hunting the weekend before Thanksgiving! WAHOO!! So, now he can go shopping with me! YIPEE! I don't think he's too thrilled, but oh well!!!!

Time to go to bed!

Really?

So, this weekend has been wonderful. Josh and I hung out last night and I baked oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. Tonight, in a few minutes after this Iowa game, we will be going out to eat at Applebees! Why is this weekend so special? Well, on Monday it'll be 5 years that Josh and I have been together. It went by so fast.

Other than that, Thursday and Friday I was in Des Moines on UNI's Accounting Club trip. We visited McGladrey & Pullen (Public Accounting Firm), Kum & Go, InPlay (Hosted by KPMG, a public accounting firm), Ernst & Young, and Principal Financial Group. It was a sweet trip. We stayed at the Renaissance Savery Hotel in Downtown Des Moines. I was able to leave on Thursday night. My dad picked me up and we went and visited my mom at Mercy. She had no idea that I was coming to see her; she just thought my dad and sister were stopping by the Hotel.

What's New...

It's been a long time....

Lately, my hard drive crashed but it's fixed now!
I haven't been able to fix some stuff. But I'm getting there!

I voted in my first Presidential Election ever today! An hour and a half...that's how long the line was. Grrr!!

Thursday morning I leave for DES MOINES!!! I'm going on the Accounting Club trip to see Des Moines accounting firms. 7:30 am is when I'm leaving to go to the bus.

i think that's it!

Oh yeah, I got sweet little gifts for people for Christmas!

Crash...

So, on Friday, October 17 around 4:15pm my computer crashed. My hard drive died, and I lost everything. My pictures are gone, my music (which I actually paid for and didn't illegally download unlike most of the world) is gone. All of my files are gone. The computer people basically said that my computer was so dead that they couldn't retrieve a single bit of information. I was given the opportunity for them to send it to a professional retrieval company. However, they said that the average price for their services was around $500. YIKES. Unfortunately, I didn't have that much important information on my computer to make it worth $500.

The major problem to getting it fixed is that I lost (misplaced) my install disks. So, now I had to get new install discs from Apple, which they're mailing here to UNI. Once I get those I'm going to go get my computer and install my operating system and begin again. I will hopefully find a way to transfer my music to my new hard drive. Luckily, I only temporarily deactivated my facebook. So, I can get pictures off of there. It still stinks that some pictures I put on my computer but not on facebook will be lost forever. AND Josh's computer has been cut-off from ResNet due to a virus infection. So, I would love to use his computer to do my corporation Finance homework, but I can't.

On that note, if you thought I de-friended you on facebook, don't worry. I just deactivated it because it was more of a distraction than anything. Once Intermediate Accounting 1 & 2 are over and some other classes, I hope to be able to reactivate it.


Goodnight

Jen~ If you read this before Sunday, October 26th...Josh is home for the weekend.

Officially

That officially makes it 3. Wells Fargo, KPMG, and Principal.

Officially, I am leaving tomorrow at 5:45pm to go on retreat. I don't know how it will go. I have a secret that I am not supposed to tell. It's hard, I'm not good at it, but I must keep it a secret. I am excited, nervous, elated, scared, etc. I just want to hug someone but I can't because that may give it away. On the other hand, retreat can go either REALLY well or REALLY poorly. We can either have a re-bonding time, or a 24 hour period where we pick at eachothers personality traits that don't mesh with ours. I don't know what it will be like compared to last year. Us girls semi got along, but the boys were able to take our dislikes for each other and focus it on them. We shall see.

Officially, I am going to miss some one on one time with Josh. He may or may not be going home. I only saw him for less than an hour today. I miss him. I realized earlier this week one day that I had only seen him at lunch and we hadn't talked at all other than that. May I also point out that lunch is not a high quality talking time for Josh and I. Mainly I am quiet and he jokes around with everyone else. Which brings me to another part of my life that is making me kind of upset and sad.

When it comes to Aaron Feeney, I thought he was pretty relaxed and someone that had a calm, non-dramatic personality. For the past 3 weeks at the VERY least, he hasn't talked to me, he won't say hi to me. I'm frustrated because I didn't do anything. No, we were never truly good friends. However, I thought we were the kind of friends that could joke and hang out together in a large group. Unfortunately, those times have come and gone. I don't know when they disappeared or why, but I feel guilty that it was something I did and didn't know about. I don't think he's a horrible person, and I've asked him if he was upset at me, no answer. *sigh*

I miss home. I never really have missed home during college except when Josh was in Des Moines and I missed him. I really really really want to go home. I need Thanksgiving Break to get here. I need time to breathe and become a person again. A person that isn't consumed with the frustrations of other people or classes. A person that can say, "I am going to go here and do what I want, when I want; and if I change my mind, oh well!" To close my door, is not enough anymore. To go to ROTH is not an escape anymore. I need to get to Des Moines, to my home, to the family I love (for the majority of time). I want to shop. While that isn't probably the best "want," it's something I am excited for and I don't have to plan it around other events and commitments. It's like my "me" time although I hope to be with atleast 2 other people. Depending on my mom's work schedule, I may ask if she wants to go, because I miss her.

My dad came up here to Cedar Falls tonight to bring my winter clothes and other items I needed. My mom was going to come up next week. However, I really wanted sweatpants by retreat so I didn't have to sleep in shorts. I know my mom was really upset about that. She won't tell anyone, but you could tell in her voice when I told her that Dad was coming up that she was looking forward to it. She was like "Oh, your Dad didn't tell me that. How come?" and I explained why. She was like "Ok, that makes sense, well, I will just come up some other time." She has never said anything about wanting to come to visit before. I have always been what they call "their independent child" and right now I am so homesick. I've never been this way before and it's catching me off guard. I need to focus, pull myself together, and go sleep.

KPMG

No internship.



Just an offer for the leadership program which is a 2 day program during the summer to learn more about KPMG.



Darn it.

Homecoming

Homecoming...is over! I personally do not like homecoming. "Why?" you ask. Because I am an RA. Homecoming is the weekend where people from Iowa and Iowa State come to UNI to party and RA's are basically on lockdown to be the fun police all weekend. This year was a zillion times better. However, I am tired. I really didnt accomplish anything until last night when I cleaned my room. Thankfully, Thursday night I did my quiz online that's due tomorrow. But nonetheless, this weekend being homecoming meant I got less sleep than I normally do and I spent more time walking the building.

Anywho.

This week includes a Non-Big 4 CPA Firm Event on Monday, Intermediate test on Tuesday, House Dinner on Thursday, Intermediate test on Thursday, Back Up on Thursday, Retreat and maybe a Cost Test on Friday.

I am officially not going home until Wednesday, November 26th. I will then be eating, shopping, and relaxing in that exact order. I do believe I am going to drag Josh along for shopping the day after Thanksgiving unless he is working, and I hope he isn't because I don't want to know how I drive at 4am. Plus, last year he called me and was basically my alarm.

My mom is probably going to come up here on the 21st of October to bring stuff from home. She has two nights off. So, she'll probably sleep during some of the day on Tuesday the 21st, drive up here, chill in my room while I'm at class, spend the night in my room, and then I don't know what on Wednesday (probably drive back).

Ok, so now that I have sufficiently rambled about nothing-ness, I am going to probably see whats on TV and watch it.

Project RA!

can you guess what the theme was???

A Special Day: September 19

Today is Leeanne Finley's birthday. She turns 21 today! I miss her and hope that she has an amazing birthday.

Also, my grandparents are coming to take Josh and I out to dinner tonight. It will be an interesting night.

I am greatly stressed. I have/had a resident who was dealing with many many issues (alcoholism, bipolar depression, nonacceptance by her friends, etc). I thought that she was beginning to sort them out. However, Thursday she went home. She hasn't been back since and tonight I was informed by one of her friends that she is withdrawing from UNI. I know I can't become invested in this one girl. But at the same time I feel like I should have done more. I have the thoughts of "Would she have stayed if I did this one thing differently?" "Did I push her too hard to go to the counseling center?" I just feel as though I failed her.

I am also getting sick thanks to Ryan, and Josh, and Feeney, and Phil. Even though Phil swears that I got them all sick without physically being sick...I am now getting sick. What I also don't understand is how Phil can blame all of this crap on me when the only time I ever see Josh is at lunch, some dinners, and then the weekend. Whereas the other attached guys in the apartment see their girlfriends every night and are able to hang out with them every night. And Josh and I still get crap from Phil? Explain to me how this makes any sense at all?

I'm taking this weekend off. I really want to go home and see my parents and get all of my clothing, because I have NO sweatpants. But I run into the problem of losing valuable time if I go home. I am super duper stressed with the amount of work I have to do for classes along with the amount I have to do for my job. So, going home on the weekends, my prime study time and catch up time, doesn't seem feasible at all. BUT I really want my sweatpants and all of my other clothes REALLY bad! I just don't know what I am going to do. Plus, I need to get an internship for this summer. Stress, stress, and more stress. What do you do with all of it?

As I continue ranting, raving, and being completely sporadic...I realized how much I dislike shopping alone today. I kind of always tried to avoid going shopping by myself. Today however, I did go by myself, and I felt like a loner and an idiot. I also was not approached by a single sales associate and personally that is a really low blow to my self esteem. While my self esteem currently is not very high due to weight gain, this was not helpful one bit. I just don't understand it. I walk into a store and the lady doesn't say hi or anything. 2 girls walk in about 15 minutes after me and get greeted by the same girl almost immediately. Do I look weird or unapproachable? I don't think so. The job I am in 24/7 requires me to appear approachable and open to others, and I would like to think that I am that way.

Last thing, wow is the only word to explain what is going on in the world. I don't watch the news (I don't have time) but I do hear about the financial world through my Corporation Finance professor who owns his own investment firm. Lehman Brothers, Merrill Lynch, AIG...REALLY? My professor has started out ranting about the financial world crumbling before our eyes. And every day he keeps saying "This US financial crisis situation has not been seen since the stock market crash in the 1930's" As he says this, especially on the first day he started ranting, I thought to myself, "Well, what a way to start out a class...saying we're in the Great Depression (pretty much) again!"

Goodnight. It's almost 2 and I should be in bed.

Stress

Stress is becoming something that consumes me. While I love the weekends, they are no becoming filled with stress; and that freaks me out!

Classes are running me into the ground. AND I have my job. Josh and I have become meal dates. That's basically the only time I see him. It's difficult. Phil actually said that Josh is the least whipped boyfriend. I know that's like nothing to anyone else, but for me that's huge. Phil has always said Josh is whipped and I don't think he's ever appreciated or accepted our relationship...aka we just don't mesh well.

So what's my plan to fix all this? Well, to start with I'm taking Saturday night off. I won't be going anywhere but I also won't be responding to anything, should it happen. Will this completely fix it? No. I have a boat load of homework to do and I have tests coming up. It will hopefully help out with the stress load though considering that school work and issues with my job are the culprits of it all!

Classes.

Classes begin tomorrow. I'm nervous, stressed, and don't feel prepared at all.

Prayer

Pray, pray, pray, pray, pray...

All I can say is pray.

I'm not going into detail, but please, in your thoughts and prayers just pray for Jaron Mumm and family.

Birthday and Beyond

So, my birthday evening was great. The day-not so much. Oh well. I worked during the day and made money and left early. Then, I got ready to go to dinner with Josh. We went to the Olive Garden (one of our favorites + Josh had a gift card for it) and each ordered amazing dinners. We each only ate half and took the other half home. Breadsticks and salad were amazing as usual. So, on to the good part... On the way back to Josh's I am just dying to know what he got me. It was like 20 questions and only one answer. "You have to wait and see." The more I ask the longer he says he's going to make me wait to open my gift. Of course, I keep asking questions and then beg to have the time moved up. So, as we pull into his driveway he says "Wait until 10 and you can open it." And I argue back and say "9!" Then he is like, "Okay, 9 but you have to promise you won't open it until 9 or when I say you can open it." So I'm thinking "Fine, whatever..." But no...He had to be a butt about it and purposely leave the stinking bag out on the table right next to where I always put my purse. Yeah... So I see it and of course am thinking "You have got to be kidding me!" I made this promise not to open it and he just had to do that. Apparently I was able to successfully hide every emotion going through my body at that time, because Josh didn't pick up on it. He thought I didn't realize. So, he walks back to his room for something, I don't know, and his mom asks me "Did you see what was on the table?" and the conversation goes on. Josh comes back in and I let my emotions show on purpose. He continues to be a brat and act all innocent like he doesn't have a clue. After going back and forth he decides to let me open it. So we sit down by the table and I open this bag with "Zales" written on it. Out comes this little black box. I'm excited but don't want to rip it apart... So, I open this little black box and find:



So there's my story! I had an amazing birthday with someone I love and just happened to get a beautiful gift from him. If he actually read this, I would say thank you.

August 4, 2008

I'M 20!!! WOO HOO... Now can this year go by really fast so I can be 21? haha.

I'm getting spoiled tonight. Josh and I are going out to the Olive Garden and then I get my gift! No clue what it is, but I can't wait!

It's just sad becasue I leave on Saturday...I am nowhere near ready to go. Haven't started packing clothes or done my door decs... my bad!

Oh well. Josh is supposed to pick me up any minute now so I must go finish getting ready!

With Love,
The Freshly 20 year old!

Summertime...

My summer is flying by...

I have no free days left except Sunday afternoons and everyone knows how motivated you are on a Sunday afternoon!

Friday is Amy's rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Saturday is Amy and Thomas's wedding. I am excited and very happy that Josh got Friday and Saturday off! Now he can take pictures for me! :-D

This past weekend Josh and I went to Leeanne and Kent's wedding. It was stunning! The ceremony was gorgeous and so was the bride. The bridesmaid dresses were the best dresses I've seen. However, it's a lonely feeling when the only friend you've hung out with and discussed every area of your life with during the summer is now married and moving to Wichita, Kansas. I am honestly happy for the couple! I will be sad to see them leave but know they are going to start a wonderful life together.

Work is going ok. I am ready for it to be over however. It isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life. So, one summer is definitely enough for me. I really like the bank but my boss is a a goober to say the least and is probably the most gossip-y and catty person in the bank. He won't talk to one of the personal bankers and frankly, that's ridiculous! We have the bank president, a commercial loan officer, my boss, another lady who works with commercial loans, two personal bankers and four tellers (at the most) in the bank at one time. It isn't very big so, to not talk to one person because you don't like them is pretty dumb!

Oh well...my summer has flown by, and I'm missing it already and it's not even over!

The Fourth

The Fourth of July weekend was amazing.

First, there was the parade. I completely enjoyed sitting there, getting burnt, and watching the parade. No, I didn't get candy. I need to fit into that darn bridesmaid dress on the 26th. So no candy for me. Oh well!
Then, we went over to the Goeldner's and had some food, talked, swam. Erica and Adam the newlyweds were there and I was ecstatic about that. We were able to talk, relax, and not get involved in the drama.
Finally, Josh got off work AT LAST, came over as I finished getting ready and we headed out to see fireworks. Usually, fireworks are a stressful and not so wonderful time. Mainly because of me and trying to maneuver Josh into finding a parking spot. BUT this year, we went earlier than usual, went to where the whole big group was, so our spot was saved and blankets set out already, and we just relaxed. I was able to give him a foot massage after he worked 10 hours, and the we both laid down and watched the fireworks...with some June bug interruptions of course!
It was great and I really enjoyed it. If only Josh didn't have to work all day.

My mission for the week is:
a) to find out what is going to happen to my iHome
or
b) begin on my project for the summer - my door decs!

Dead.

I think I may have killed my iHome tonight. The speakers won't work anymore. Problem is, I didn't buy this lovely iHome. It was a Valentine's Day gift from a very special guy. I'm taking it to the Apple Store to see if they can fix it. Otherwise, I'm going to have to buy a new one. Eesh! My one wish: it works or they can fix it / Josh isn't mad!

Summer

It's summer! I've been working now for...let me count...2 1/2 weeks. Yeah, it's gone by fast.

My new bedtime is 11 or earlier. Thursday night I fell asleep at 7 ish. My dad woke me up at 11:30 and said I needed to move up to my room. Then, I slept until my alarm at 6 am. I'm feeling old. I don't go out other than to Josh's; and even there I fall asleep every night and wake up to "someone's" face right in front of mine...it freaks me out every time! haha. but I'm having a great summer. Someday I need to unpack. But for now I'm good. Actually, maybe tonight I'll do that.

I went shopping today for a dress to wear to Erica and Leeanne's weddings. It's cute AND little did I know, it was on sale! That made me really happy! But, the one dress I need in order to begin on alterations is the bridesmaid dress for Amy's wedding...does it really take 6 weeks to order a bridesmaid dress? Maybe so, but I didn't expect it to take that long. So, I will be able to pick it up on June 26. Then, I'll take it to get tailored and hope it all gets done in time.

Anywho...I have my second and final grad open house to go to. Then, I probably should clean!

*sigh*

What a relief...I was honestly thinking I wasn't going to get a single A this semester.
Managerial Accounting: Hooray for a B!!! (I'm not going to start on that class...)
Marketing: B ... moral of the story is Marketing stinks like poo.
Oral Comm: A- ... I'm happy with an A-. She wasn't an easy grader.
Africa: A ... I handed in 60% of my grade on the final day (a test & paper) so it was in the air.
Intro to Information Systems: B+ ... I'm ok with that class...she was my favorite prof for the semester so I'm kind of bummed I didn't do better. oh well...

So yes, now I can sleep better even though I lost my spot on the Dean's List. poop.

PS~ Work started out SO incredibly boring. Today however was much less boring!
I went shopping for work clothes because I've never had to actually dress up for a job. For the past almost 3 years I've been able to wear the same khaki pants from Target with a plain black tee also from Target everyday of the week. Now, I actually need to wear something different every day. So, I have 2 pairs of black pants, khakis for Fridays, and not very many tops AT ALL. I went looking for a pair of grey pants and more tops that I could mix and match. I was unsuccessful. But I did find speakers I want to buy for my computer since the speakers on the computer are itty bitty and quiet! haha.

I'm now waking up between 530 and 630 am so my bedtime is really early...I'm adjusting...but it's so different working with only adults instead of my focus being on kids. I kind of miss the babies, knowing what I was doing, talking to parents for what seems like forever, sitting in rocking chairs and talking to teachers, etc etc etc.
In short, do you need a babysitter or know someone who does? haha! (Especially if they have infants...I like to call infants my specialty :D )

I GOT IT!!!!!!

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!
I'm so excited!
Today has been such a great day!
It all started out with...well...the not so fun part. I'm sick. It's just a cold but it's gone to my chest. So, now I have a horrible cough and really runny nose. Sound familiar? I thought so.
Anywho, I went to check to see if I got onto the Waiting List for Legal and Social Environment of Business ad Corporation Finance. I DID!!!! (Good Thing #1). I was so happy. However, I may drop one of them due to the heavy course load. We shall see.
Good Thing #2:
I GOT THE JOB AT GREAT WESTERN BANK!
$12 an hour (incredible since I'll be driving a lot more!)
It is in Altoona, but I'm also getting paid more. And I can just stop at Josh's house on my way back from work instead of driving home then to his house. I'm super duper excited I got this job. I was dreading having to o job hunting this weekend. I have a bridal shower on Saturday and I really didn't want to have to squeeze in applying places.
Good Thing #3:
I have a bridal shower this weekend! YAY! Im really excited... One problem though. I know the time it's at but not the place. Kind of a problem right? I thought so too! Either way, I'm super excited!

This whole day has been good things and it helped make me feel a little bit better. I still despise being sick however! Plus, Im out of kleenexes.....grrrr...oh well. I'm done with my homework for the week so I think I'll be able to run to Hy-Vee tonight and get some.

YAY! I'm just really happy right now!
Time to clean...

Almost...

I am almost done! I'm so excited. I had a phone interview with Great Western Bank. They have a position for a Credit Analyst Intern. Problem is: it's in Altoona. I hope that doesn't run my mileage too far up. I've been conserving it so far this year...yikes! He said it may be possible for me to work out of the Clive bank but I haven't had an in person interview yet. He said he would call me on Tuesday to set it up. That just means I'll have to skip class...grrr... I'm nervous about that one with Finals coming up.

I have my persuasive speech in one week. What am I going to do it on? I thought about persuading people to become a RA...that may just be the easiest.

Anyways, no class today. But I have A LOT to do since Relay for Life was this weekend! I made it all night! From 5:30 pm to 6:30 am! YES! I also met my goal for donations! THANK YOU!!! It was a great night and I had a lot of fun!

Thursdays and everytime in general...

I'm sick of it...
I'm done...
Why don't people just get it?...
Take a hint...
Stop what's getting you in trouble and you won't get in trouble...
Simple as that...
I need quiet Hagemann without soccer girls...

i'm back

I'm back from Florida....boo hoo!

I am very angry at the midwest!
So, I fly from Tampa to Chicago...Chicago is a NIGHTMARE!!!! Snowy and wet, so many flights delayed and canceled... I was supposed to board at 6:37. I didn't board until 7. Then, I walk OUTSIDE to my dinky little plane and step in this huge puddle which goes up to my ankles. So my socks and shoes are soaked...I then sit on the plane (without it moving) for AT LEAST 45 minutes. Then, they say that they're overweight, so they have to juggle some numbers. So we wait another 15 minutes. Then we start to taxi out of the gate. We sit in a line of 10 planes waiting to take off and also avoiding planes coming in because our runway and their runway intersect. That takes about another 30 minutes. Finally we're off! We fly to Des Moines where it is freezing cold as well...and here I am. Amy, who I was flying with, was supposed to take off at 8:25; she didn't get to Des Moines until midnight! and then worked Saturday morning! I also left the lining of my winter coat with my parents...so I don't have all of my Columbia coat...grrrr!

I took lots of pictures...way too many to put on here! haha!

Now I get to go back to school! yippee....not

on a happier note...Florida was amazing! it was 83 degree weather and I just loved it! I got josh two shirts. One is white with blue writing saying St Pete Beach and the other is green with white writing. The picture is like the bathroom figure people and one is a groom with a frown and one is a bride with a smile and it says "Game Over" haha! I thought it was funny! My parents didn't really say anything...
I had a great time and am sad it is over! it was way too much fun with so many gorgeous sunsets!

Anxious

I'm anxious, excited, and very tired.

Last night was a stressful night. I'm not going in to detail but everything is okay now. I'm just tired, it wore me out.

Tonight I'm locking myself in my room (by choice) and studying until I can't see anymore. I will also be doing this same routine tomorrow night. Hopefully I'll do well on my midterms, but we will see!

After Africa, I'm packing and then eating lunch and LEAVING!!!! I need this break from class, work, and people. I also really really want to go to sleep at midnight. I haven't done that in so long! I mean, Saturday night, I didn't get to bed until almost 4 am!!!

Florida, I'm coming, just let me take these two tests!

March

March is here at last...

I wish it wasn't

grrrr.

I hate stores
I hate shopping
I hate fat
I hate love handles
and most of all... I hate swim suits! They just love highlighting every bad aspect of you.

I also don't get why swim suits get smaller and smaller every year. I used to be a large on top medium on bottom. I am no longer those sizes. But, I've only gained 10 pounds and I know for a fact it's all gone to my stomach section (ask my jeans!)

I am so frustrated right now! Spring break is in 2 weeks exactly. How am I supposed to go to Florida without a swim suit? I don't want to just buy one that I will never wear and makes me feel like a tub of lard (yes, I know that was harsh...but swim suits exaggerate everything negative so I thought I would act like them!)

grrrrr.......

Coupons???

This is random...but I don't feel that tired.

Josh has been really down lately. Phil (his roommate) has officially stopped talking to him over 15 cents. Josh has tried to talk to him and tried to help him when he asks for help. But whenever he does that, Phil just shuts him down. Josh is just really down because he's supposed to live with Phil, Feeney, Ryan, and Nate next year and this whole argument has created a division. Phil obviously is not talking to Josh. However, Feeney and Ryan are in a way choosing Phil's side. It's natural because they've known each other for a longer period of time. However, if Phil gets and takes the RA position, it's Josh, Feeney, Ryan and Nate. I just don't want anything to jeopardize Josh's living situation next year because for once he was really excited about it.

SO, I want to do something for him. I was thinking a coupon book of some sort. But honestly, I don't know if I could come up with anything creative. We don't take many pictures, together or apart. I think the only two pictures I have of just him are our anniversary and his senior picture. Hmmm... I'm not sure...I'll probably think of something as I'm trying to go to sleep!

IJWTFL

Have you ever attempted to do something nice...or at least thought of an idea. But you needed someone else's opinion to do it. So when you go to that person to get their opinion they are nowhere to be found. Then you stand around just waiting for them where they said they would be. They don't show up. You feel like a complete idiot because you see the looks other people give you. You try and call them but someone has been using their phone because they decided to chuck their phone at a wall. So you have no form of communication between yourself and that person. So when you finally go to hunt them down they tell you that they are sick of your complaining and bitching. Have you ever felt that frustration? And then you don't even want to be near them. So you go to walk around and cool down. They come looking for you and flip out at you. You know that if just one word comes out of your mouth you won't be able to stop. So you just walk, you leave, and you separate. All you wanted was 5 letters. Not a complete sentence, not an excuse, not an explanation, not even a SMILE. Just 5 letters and they just so happen to spell "sorry". Is it truly too much to hope for and to want? Just those five letters can erase the feeling you get from standing by the carts in Wal-Mart watching people come in and out and you're always in the way. Those 5 letters can make you forget the fact that he said goodbye to a guy and girl he met in August but he couldn't even say "bye" to someone he met over 4 years ago. It didn't have to be a nicely said "bye". It could've been dripping with anger. It still would have been something!




Is it bad that we fought less when we were apart than when we are together?

Gossip

Dictionary Definition:

1.	idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others

Does this need to happen between coworkers?
NO

Does this need to spread to residents?
NO

Did it do both of the above?
YES

Am I hurt, mad, angry, furious, and upset?
YES

Has it hurt a relationship with a resident?
YES

Was that a good relationship to start with?
No, it was one I've been struggling with and now don't know if it ever will.

Was I just trying to look out for this resident?
YES!!!!! I just wanted her to be safe!

Does she believe me?
NO

Do I know what to do next?
NO

Lastly, do I have any faith or trust in my staff?
NOT ANYMORE.

FAITH

1.	confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.

2.	belief that is not based on proof.

3.	belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion

4.	belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.

TRUST

1.	reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

2.	confident expectation of something; hope.

3.	confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received;

4.	a person on whom or thing on which one relies

5.	the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.

6.	the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.

7.	charge, custody, or care: to leave valuables in someone's trust.

8.	something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.

I'm just saying...

So, I'm going to be unavailable for the next 8 days! But, while I feel like it, I would like to say that if I get what I want...I will be related to one amazing photographer! PLUS, the kicker is that she does it for her own satisfaction (as of right now). She's incredible! You should look!

http://www.betterphoto.com/gallery/gallery.asp?memberID=226458

Now that I have all positive energy released...here's my stress load:

Tonight began RA Conference. The printing company shorted us 100 copies of the schedule (which is 23 pages front and back) Picture me freaking out right now!

Tomorrow we continue RA Conference at 7:30 am and it goes all day. I am then on call tomorrow night which means I'll be up until after 2 am....

Sunday I have a meeting and then approximately 8 chapters to read and Managerial Accounting problems to do.

Monday I have class and am on call that night (that means no bed until 1 am)

Tuesday I have class all day and a night class along with studying for a test in Managerial Accounting on Wednesday

Wednesday I have a test...and will possibly be doing a pizza party for my house for reaching our GPA goal for last semester and being the second best in Noehren for House GPAs! If I don't do that Wednesday I will have it Thursday!

Friday and Saturday I am on call which means I wont be asleep until after 2 am both nights...

I need that relaxing aromatherapy spray asap! :-)

I'm going to bed....

PS~ If you're caught carrying beer in a red cup in the hallway DONT LIE and DONT bring the RA to the room with 4 30 packs of beer (most of them empty). Because us RA's know residents and we knew this person I'm talking about and she's going to be in big trouble! Along with the other group of guys...ay yi yi

Time to go back...

So, it's almost time for me to go back to school. Am I ready? That would be a giant NO! I'm honestly not at all excited to go back to school. I don't want to go live in an itty bitty room and eat the food at the dining center. I don't want to work with people who don't care and would rather party. I don't want to deal with the drama of a certain guy not knowing how far is too far and Josh wanting to pummel him for that. It's just not that appealing to me. All of this put together makes me want to go to Drake even more next year!

On that note: What if Accounting isn't right for me. Then I change my major to Pharmacy and what happens if I end up hating Pharmacy? Then I would have changed schools, changed majors, and I'm in no better place than before and paying more for it! How do you know you're going to like to field you go in to? Is it supposed to feel like a guessing game and all the way through it you're telling yourself "I hope it turns out ok?" I don't know.

Another question: What is up with spontaneous, out-of-the-blue weddings? First Caleb Roney and his now-wife and now Courtney Keeney and Luke Harden? I didnt hear the full story behind Caleb's but they were at least dating. Courtney and Luke however have only ever been friends and they get engaged a week ago. THEN last night they each call one of their friends saying that they're having an engagement party and BOOM it's a wedding! Dress, tuxedo, PROGRAM, one maid of honor, a best man, and immediate family in her grandmother's house. All I know is that it wouldn't be my choice. I would need a year to plan, I couldn't in a week!