i'm back

I'm back from Florida....boo hoo!

I am very angry at the midwest!
So, I fly from Tampa to Chicago...Chicago is a NIGHTMARE!!!! Snowy and wet, so many flights delayed and canceled... I was supposed to board at 6:37. I didn't board until 7. Then, I walk OUTSIDE to my dinky little plane and step in this huge puddle which goes up to my ankles. So my socks and shoes are soaked...I then sit on the plane (without it moving) for AT LEAST 45 minutes. Then, they say that they're overweight, so they have to juggle some numbers. So we wait another 15 minutes. Then we start to taxi out of the gate. We sit in a line of 10 planes waiting to take off and also avoiding planes coming in because our runway and their runway intersect. That takes about another 30 minutes. Finally we're off! We fly to Des Moines where it is freezing cold as well...and here I am. Amy, who I was flying with, was supposed to take off at 8:25; she didn't get to Des Moines until midnight! and then worked Saturday morning! I also left the lining of my winter coat with my parents...so I don't have all of my Columbia coat...grrrr!

I took lots of pictures...way too many to put on here! haha!

Now I get to go back to school! yippee....not

on a happier note...Florida was amazing! it was 83 degree weather and I just loved it! I got josh two shirts. One is white with blue writing saying St Pete Beach and the other is green with white writing. The picture is like the bathroom figure people and one is a groom with a frown and one is a bride with a smile and it says "Game Over" haha! I thought it was funny! My parents didn't really say anything...
I had a great time and am sad it is over! it was way too much fun with so many gorgeous sunsets!

Anxious

I'm anxious, excited, and very tired.

Last night was a stressful night. I'm not going in to detail but everything is okay now. I'm just tired, it wore me out.

Tonight I'm locking myself in my room (by choice) and studying until I can't see anymore. I will also be doing this same routine tomorrow night. Hopefully I'll do well on my midterms, but we will see!

After Africa, I'm packing and then eating lunch and LEAVING!!!! I need this break from class, work, and people. I also really really want to go to sleep at midnight. I haven't done that in so long! I mean, Saturday night, I didn't get to bed until almost 4 am!!!

Florida, I'm coming, just let me take these two tests!

March

March is here at last...

I wish it wasn't

grrrr.

I hate stores
I hate shopping
I hate fat
I hate love handles
and most of all... I hate swim suits! They just love highlighting every bad aspect of you.

I also don't get why swim suits get smaller and smaller every year. I used to be a large on top medium on bottom. I am no longer those sizes. But, I've only gained 10 pounds and I know for a fact it's all gone to my stomach section (ask my jeans!)

I am so frustrated right now! Spring break is in 2 weeks exactly. How am I supposed to go to Florida without a swim suit? I don't want to just buy one that I will never wear and makes me feel like a tub of lard (yes, I know that was harsh...but swim suits exaggerate everything negative so I thought I would act like them!)

grrrrr.......

Coupons???

This is random...but I don't feel that tired.

Josh has been really down lately. Phil (his roommate) has officially stopped talking to him over 15 cents. Josh has tried to talk to him and tried to help him when he asks for help. But whenever he does that, Phil just shuts him down. Josh is just really down because he's supposed to live with Phil, Feeney, Ryan, and Nate next year and this whole argument has created a division. Phil obviously is not talking to Josh. However, Feeney and Ryan are in a way choosing Phil's side. It's natural because they've known each other for a longer period of time. However, if Phil gets and takes the RA position, it's Josh, Feeney, Ryan and Nate. I just don't want anything to jeopardize Josh's living situation next year because for once he was really excited about it.

SO, I want to do something for him. I was thinking a coupon book of some sort. But honestly, I don't know if I could come up with anything creative. We don't take many pictures, together or apart. I think the only two pictures I have of just him are our anniversary and his senior picture. Hmmm... I'm not sure...I'll probably think of something as I'm trying to go to sleep!

IJWTFL

Have you ever attempted to do something nice...or at least thought of an idea. But you needed someone else's opinion to do it. So when you go to that person to get their opinion they are nowhere to be found. Then you stand around just waiting for them where they said they would be. They don't show up. You feel like a complete idiot because you see the looks other people give you. You try and call them but someone has been using their phone because they decided to chuck their phone at a wall. So you have no form of communication between yourself and that person. So when you finally go to hunt them down they tell you that they are sick of your complaining and bitching. Have you ever felt that frustration? And then you don't even want to be near them. So you go to walk around and cool down. They come looking for you and flip out at you. You know that if just one word comes out of your mouth you won't be able to stop. So you just walk, you leave, and you separate. All you wanted was 5 letters. Not a complete sentence, not an excuse, not an explanation, not even a SMILE. Just 5 letters and they just so happen to spell "sorry". Is it truly too much to hope for and to want? Just those five letters can erase the feeling you get from standing by the carts in Wal-Mart watching people come in and out and you're always in the way. Those 5 letters can make you forget the fact that he said goodbye to a guy and girl he met in August but he couldn't even say "bye" to someone he met over 4 years ago. It didn't have to be a nicely said "bye". It could've been dripping with anger. It still would have been something!




Is it bad that we fought less when we were apart than when we are together?

Gossip

Dictionary Definition:

1.	idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others

Does this need to happen between coworkers?
NO

Does this need to spread to residents?
NO

Did it do both of the above?
YES

Am I hurt, mad, angry, furious, and upset?
YES

Has it hurt a relationship with a resident?
YES

Was that a good relationship to start with?
No, it was one I've been struggling with and now don't know if it ever will.

Was I just trying to look out for this resident?
YES!!!!! I just wanted her to be safe!

Does she believe me?
NO

Do I know what to do next?
NO

Lastly, do I have any faith or trust in my staff?
NOT ANYMORE.

FAITH

1.	confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.

2.	belief that is not based on proof.

3.	belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion

4.	belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.

TRUST

1.	reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

2.	confident expectation of something; hope.

3.	confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received;

4.	a person on whom or thing on which one relies

5.	the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.

6.	the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.

7.	charge, custody, or care: to leave valuables in someone's trust.

8.	something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.

I'm just saying...

So, I'm going to be unavailable for the next 8 days! But, while I feel like it, I would like to say that if I get what I want...I will be related to one amazing photographer! PLUS, the kicker is that she does it for her own satisfaction (as of right now). She's incredible! You should look!

http://www.betterphoto.com/gallery/gallery.asp?memberID=226458

Now that I have all positive energy released...here's my stress load:

Tonight began RA Conference. The printing company shorted us 100 copies of the schedule (which is 23 pages front and back) Picture me freaking out right now!

Tomorrow we continue RA Conference at 7:30 am and it goes all day. I am then on call tomorrow night which means I'll be up until after 2 am....

Sunday I have a meeting and then approximately 8 chapters to read and Managerial Accounting problems to do.

Monday I have class and am on call that night (that means no bed until 1 am)

Tuesday I have class all day and a night class along with studying for a test in Managerial Accounting on Wednesday

Wednesday I have a test...and will possibly be doing a pizza party for my house for reaching our GPA goal for last semester and being the second best in Noehren for House GPAs! If I don't do that Wednesday I will have it Thursday!

Friday and Saturday I am on call which means I wont be asleep until after 2 am both nights...

I need that relaxing aromatherapy spray asap! :-)

I'm going to bed....

PS~ If you're caught carrying beer in a red cup in the hallway DONT LIE and DONT bring the RA to the room with 4 30 packs of beer (most of them empty). Because us RA's know residents and we knew this person I'm talking about and she's going to be in big trouble! Along with the other group of guys...ay yi yi