March

March is here at last...

I wish it wasn't

grrrr.

I hate stores
I hate shopping
I hate fat
I hate love handles
and most of all... I hate swim suits! They just love highlighting every bad aspect of you.

I also don't get why swim suits get smaller and smaller every year. I used to be a large on top medium on bottom. I am no longer those sizes. But, I've only gained 10 pounds and I know for a fact it's all gone to my stomach section (ask my jeans!)

I am so frustrated right now! Spring break is in 2 weeks exactly. How am I supposed to go to Florida without a swim suit? I don't want to just buy one that I will never wear and makes me feel like a tub of lard (yes, I know that was harsh...but swim suits exaggerate everything negative so I thought I would act like them!)

grrrrr.......

Coupons???

This is random...but I don't feel that tired.

Josh has been really down lately. Phil (his roommate) has officially stopped talking to him over 15 cents. Josh has tried to talk to him and tried to help him when he asks for help. But whenever he does that, Phil just shuts him down. Josh is just really down because he's supposed to live with Phil, Feeney, Ryan, and Nate next year and this whole argument has created a division. Phil obviously is not talking to Josh. However, Feeney and Ryan are in a way choosing Phil's side. It's natural because they've known each other for a longer period of time. However, if Phil gets and takes the RA position, it's Josh, Feeney, Ryan and Nate. I just don't want anything to jeopardize Josh's living situation next year because for once he was really excited about it.

SO, I want to do something for him. I was thinking a coupon book of some sort. But honestly, I don't know if I could come up with anything creative. We don't take many pictures, together or apart. I think the only two pictures I have of just him are our anniversary and his senior picture. Hmmm... I'm not sure...I'll probably think of something as I'm trying to go to sleep!

IJWTFL

Have you ever attempted to do something nice...or at least thought of an idea. But you needed someone else's opinion to do it. So when you go to that person to get their opinion they are nowhere to be found. Then you stand around just waiting for them where they said they would be. They don't show up. You feel like a complete idiot because you see the looks other people give you. You try and call them but someone has been using their phone because they decided to chuck their phone at a wall. So you have no form of communication between yourself and that person. So when you finally go to hunt them down they tell you that they are sick of your complaining and bitching. Have you ever felt that frustration? And then you don't even want to be near them. So you go to walk around and cool down. They come looking for you and flip out at you. You know that if just one word comes out of your mouth you won't be able to stop. So you just walk, you leave, and you separate. All you wanted was 5 letters. Not a complete sentence, not an excuse, not an explanation, not even a SMILE. Just 5 letters and they just so happen to spell "sorry". Is it truly too much to hope for and to want? Just those five letters can erase the feeling you get from standing by the carts in Wal-Mart watching people come in and out and you're always in the way. Those 5 letters can make you forget the fact that he said goodbye to a guy and girl he met in August but he couldn't even say "bye" to someone he met over 4 years ago. It didn't have to be a nicely said "bye". It could've been dripping with anger. It still would have been something!




Is it bad that we fought less when we were apart than when we are together?

Gossip

Dictionary Definition:

1.	idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others

Does this need to happen between coworkers?
NO

Does this need to spread to residents?
NO

Did it do both of the above?
YES

Am I hurt, mad, angry, furious, and upset?
YES

Has it hurt a relationship with a resident?
YES

Was that a good relationship to start with?
No, it was one I've been struggling with and now don't know if it ever will.

Was I just trying to look out for this resident?
YES!!!!! I just wanted her to be safe!

Does she believe me?
NO

Do I know what to do next?
NO

Lastly, do I have any faith or trust in my staff?
NOT ANYMORE.

FAITH

1.	confidence or trust in a person or thing: faith in another's ability.

2.	belief that is not based on proof.

3.	belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion

4.	belief in anything, as a code of ethics, standards of merit, etc.: to be of the same faith with someone concerning honesty.

TRUST

1.	reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

2.	confident expectation of something; hope.

3.	confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received;

4.	a person on whom or thing on which one relies

5.	the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.

6.	the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed: a position of trust.

7.	charge, custody, or care: to leave valuables in someone's trust.

8.	something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge.

I'm just saying...

So, I'm going to be unavailable for the next 8 days! But, while I feel like it, I would like to say that if I get what I want...I will be related to one amazing photographer! PLUS, the kicker is that she does it for her own satisfaction (as of right now). She's incredible! You should look!

http://www.betterphoto.com/gallery/gallery.asp?memberID=226458

Now that I have all positive energy released...here's my stress load:

Tonight began RA Conference. The printing company shorted us 100 copies of the schedule (which is 23 pages front and back) Picture me freaking out right now!

Tomorrow we continue RA Conference at 7:30 am and it goes all day. I am then on call tomorrow night which means I'll be up until after 2 am....

Sunday I have a meeting and then approximately 8 chapters to read and Managerial Accounting problems to do.

Monday I have class and am on call that night (that means no bed until 1 am)

Tuesday I have class all day and a night class along with studying for a test in Managerial Accounting on Wednesday

Wednesday I have a test...and will possibly be doing a pizza party for my house for reaching our GPA goal for last semester and being the second best in Noehren for House GPAs! If I don't do that Wednesday I will have it Thursday!

Friday and Saturday I am on call which means I wont be asleep until after 2 am both nights...

I need that relaxing aromatherapy spray asap! :-)

I'm going to bed....

PS~ If you're caught carrying beer in a red cup in the hallway DONT LIE and DONT bring the RA to the room with 4 30 packs of beer (most of them empty). Because us RA's know residents and we knew this person I'm talking about and she's going to be in big trouble! Along with the other group of guys...ay yi yi

Time to go back...

So, it's almost time for me to go back to school. Am I ready? That would be a giant NO! I'm honestly not at all excited to go back to school. I don't want to go live in an itty bitty room and eat the food at the dining center. I don't want to work with people who don't care and would rather party. I don't want to deal with the drama of a certain guy not knowing how far is too far and Josh wanting to pummel him for that. It's just not that appealing to me. All of this put together makes me want to go to Drake even more next year!

On that note: What if Accounting isn't right for me. Then I change my major to Pharmacy and what happens if I end up hating Pharmacy? Then I would have changed schools, changed majors, and I'm in no better place than before and paying more for it! How do you know you're going to like to field you go in to? Is it supposed to feel like a guessing game and all the way through it you're telling yourself "I hope it turns out ok?" I don't know.

Another question: What is up with spontaneous, out-of-the-blue weddings? First Caleb Roney and his now-wife and now Courtney Keeney and Luke Harden? I didnt hear the full story behind Caleb's but they were at least dating. Courtney and Luke however have only ever been friends and they get engaged a week ago. THEN last night they each call one of their friends saying that they're having an engagement party and BOOM it's a wedding! Dress, tuxedo, PROGRAM, one maid of honor, a best man, and immediate family in her grandmother's house. All I know is that it wouldn't be my choice. I would need a year to plan, I couldn't in a week!

Christmas

Christmas this year was great! Christmas Eve I went to Josh's and had a great night! We ate good food, opened presents, and played games. It was so great!

Then Christmas Day I opened presents with my family. I already knew what they were considering I picked them out. I didn't really want anything so I got a phone charger because mine broke and some shampoo and conditioner (Special Tree Tea) which I normally don't buy due to the expensive cost but since it was Christmas, I asked for it!

Both Friday and Saturday night I went to my Grandparents. Josh came with me on Friday night. We just kind of relaxed and talked. Saturday night was present night. It was a great night and lots of laughs! I think my favorite memory of both nights was when my Grandma completely burned my cousin Justin. They were talking about basketball and Justin was saying how they had only won a couple game and my grandma says "All those practices aren't helping?" and someone else chimes in and asks if he's on JV or Varsity and he says "Well we don't have a JV team" and my grandma says "Oh well that explains it!"

Tonight I'm going over to Josh's and we're going to play games and ring in 2008! Yay! 2007 was a good year but I think 2008 will be even better!

Also, I forgot, we didn't pay our phone bill on time so they suspended our account so if you want to get a hold of me call me. I can't respond to texts and I can't call you to tell you I can't text!