Less than two weeks

Two weeks. Less than that! hallelujah! So, I was sitting talking to Josh and asked him how happy he was with his life right now. He said he was happy! He asked the same question to me...I can't say I responded with the same answer. I said that many many things could be improved upon...I decided that I needed to think this out!

• School sucks. Last semester I actually enjoyed the majority of my classes. Not this semester. I'm basically just trying to get through them; i.e. Sociology and Microeconomics. I would include Humanities but I'm through with it now so it doesn't count anymore.
• My roommate situation is truly not ideal at all. We really don't get along. We each talk about eachother behind their back. She told one of my friends that she felt sorry for me because I don't get out much and I don't hang out with anyone. Let me just defend myself...I don't get out to hang out with people because I'm trying to do well in my classes which I DON'T SKIP! If you can skip and get good grades with barely studying then congrats to you. I can not skip or even space out! Which then goes back to my first point!
• My relationship could be improved upon in the sense that I hate distance. It has been the hardest part of our relationship being apart. We fight so much more now. In about the first 2 years we did not fight. If we did it was needed and we only grew from it. Now, fighting is normal and I hate it! I just want to be able to have my main form of conversation be face to face. I hate talking on my cell phone. I don't want to sit in the hall every night talking to him. I want to see him in the flesh...I just miss him immensely. Tonight as I was sitting in the hall talking to him I looked to my right....I seriously longed for him to be there right then. It really did feel like part of me was missing and I had to find it as soon as possible. It was like a hole.....
• Previously I talked about a friend. Well that friend, who for a while I thought would be my maid of honor, has disregarded my emotions too many times. I wrote a letter to her because the situation did not allow for me to speak to her in private (which was the cause of the problem) and I basically said that I felt like she was treating me like trash. I was good for first semester but then once her fiance came this semester, I no longer had any use for her so everything was on his terms. We never got our girl time anymore and if she asked for a night where us girls could hang out he would throw a fit and she would give in. I told her I missed her. One would think that she would at least make an effort to have at least one girls night.... That one girls night never happened. It was never brought up. She has still come to me complaining about her fiance and I finally snapped. I told her that I am not her fiance and if she had something to say about him, I was not going to listen. I am not part of that relationship! So, she was like "okay." I went to dinner with them like every night on Wednesday and Thursday night of this past week. Both meals I could not even have the option to take part in the conversation. I thought that if you asked someone if they were going to dinner with you that you would at least try to incorporate them in the conversation. I guess times have changed....and so has our relationship. I am now the girl she goes to when she wants to complain about her fiance.....aka I'm a toilet to put her crap in.

That basically sums it up. I really am happy....I'm just being pessimistic tonight. Sorry for the crude example at the end there.

Melissa

All Star by Smash Mouth
...

It's a cool place and they say it gets colder
You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older
But the media men beg to differ
Judging by the hole in the satellite picture
The ice we skate is getting pretty thin
The waters getting warm so you might as well swim
My world's on fire how about yours
That's the way I like it and I never get bored

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play
Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid
(And all that glitters is gold)
...
Only shooting stars break the mold 

Sex and the City

Sex and the City is actually a pretty addicting show!

It's awkward, really awkward, at time...but you glance away and then for some reason you still look back and continue watching! Don't ask me why!!!

Girls night was awesome! LOVED IT! It was a little weird being with 4 other girls that are like "I hate boys" but it was ok! It was still fun and I love them! Part of me is sad that I won't see them as much in 2 weeks. :-(

I need to sleep! I have brunch at 1130! grrr. oh well! I still love them!

April 16, 2007

Today is marked with tragedy and sorrow. My prayers are down at Virginia Tech. May a sense of calmness and peace come upon them soon. May there be an overwhelming support for those who attend and for those who know someone that attends that university. Sometimes people say that tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow will not be another day for many people. Tomorrow may be the beginning of their life without a brother, sister, son, daughter, best friend, wife, husband, etc. May they find peace and may they be comforted by those surrounding them. May they have an immense support group.

This Weekend

So,
This weekend was pretty much incredible! Josh and Phil came up here on Friday. I had Relay for Life but I left around 10:30-ish. So, we went back to my room and the guys watched tv. It was nice and relaxing! Then, Courtney came over and hung out with us for a little bit. We ended up going to sleep around like 2 am.
Saturday, I probably was woken up around 8 am (six hours of sleep....). We then took a couple of pictures, one of them being the picture in this post!! After that, Phil woke up and we went to brunch (the three of us and Courtney). We then went back to the room. I got ready and the boys went and threw around a football!
At 6:00 we went out to Applebee's with Jackie, Josh Wilson, Courtney, Phil, Josh and I. This begins the best weekend of the entire year! We ate at Applebee's, went back to Courtney's to play Cranium, went bowling, and then watched Ice Age. It was completely hilarious! I can't even remember half of the things that happened. I'll try and list a few:
Josh Wilson's jokes at Applebee's
It's A Small World After All
United Nations
Ransom
the Bike
Suck It!!!
basically cranium in general
the closet
Lawther's Men's restroom.....unbelievably hilarious
Three Strikes
girls vs boys
courtney and phil's 1 year anniversary
Courtney dying in the closet
Ice Age
staying up until 4 and still being completely awake (without caffeine)

I think that's it.
So, today Phil left around 10 am. Josh and I just relaxed, our voices were sore, and we only got 4 hours of sleep. We went to Jimmy John's, Wal-Mart, and Walgreens. Josh took off around 2 and ever since then I've been procrastinating on my 5 papers i have to write!

In the end, best weekend ever! haha! All I can do is sit and laugh....

Melissa

April 11

So, it is snowing and blowing and freezing outside right now! It sucks major-ly!
I walked to class today and basically almost slipped the whole way
I wouldn't go to class if I didn't have to turn in a paper
I have 5 papers due next week on wednesday and it sucks
One of them is extra credit, but you learn in college to never ever let extra credit go by because your grade is "ok"
My feet are cold because my socks were wet so I took them off and didn't put new ones on
The new Facebook layout sucks! I do not like it at all anymore! Im so confused by it
I have to go do major research in the Library today! fun fun....
I need to go get my boots out and put on my jeans and roll them up
I hate it when jeans get wet! That's why I wear boots when they'll get wet because i hate the feeling of wet jeans on skin.
I really need to get to class in about 20 minutes
I have to watch An Inconvenient Truth tomorrow night
I don't have homework for tomorrow but Im going to write one of those papers tonight maybe?
My extra credit assignment is about Facebook. It'll be interesting.
I really need to get a picture on here but I don't have one i really like right now
Josh and Phil are coming to visit me this weekend and we're going out on a triple date
I'm setting Phil up with one of my really good friends Courtney
I spent about $200 dollars this weekend on one outfit.
That outfit is what I'm wearing on Saturday night
I really hope there's no snow on the ground saturday night
I'm wearing really cute peekaboo toe leather heels by Steve Madden
I'm super excited about it and I hope Phil and Courtney like each other and can atleast form a friendship
I've lost my trust in my roommate. But that's another post just waiting to happen.
My toes are really cold!!!!!!
I really want to have music on right now! But the tv is on and that would be too much
Oh well
I chose Real World by Matchbox 20!
AMAZING SONG! LOVE IT

I wonder what it’s like to be the rainmaker
I wonder what it’s like to know that I make the rain
I’d store it in boxes with little yellow tags on everyone
and you can come see them when I’m...done, when I’m done

I wonder what it’s like to be a super hero
I wonder where I’d go if I could fly around downtown
from some other planet, I get this funky high on yellow sun
boy I bet my friends will all be...stunned, they’re stunned

(chorus)
straight up, what did you hope to learn about here
if I were someone else, would this all fall apart
strange, where were you, when we started this gig,
I wish the real world, would just stop hassling me

I wonder what it’s like to be the head honcho
I wonder what I’d do if they all did just what I said
I’d shout out an order, I think we’re out of this man get me some
boy don’t make me wanna change my...tone, my tone

33 days left

Have you ever felt as if you were a third wheel even when you've been in a relationship for over 3 years?
I have a friend, and this friend is currently engaged. She's on 7 months older than I am. Problem is, her fiance did not attend UNI last semester. So, we were both in the same boat where our significant others weren't with us etc etc...
This semester her fiance is living on campus and in currently enrolled at UNI. He moved his computer and everything but his bed into her room. Now, he comes over after his class (if he goes) and will be in there all day until approximately 11 or midnight. I no longer am able to spend any time with her nor do anything with her without him coming along too. He has stated on multiple accounts that he is always right. She won't argue with him and she won't disagree with him. If she does disagree with him with something he says, she'll come to me and tell me about it but she won't ever mention it to him. We were going to go to a makeup party her mom was throwing this weekend. I didn't end up going because her fiance wanted to leave at 8 am (the party was at 3 pm) and after the party they ended up going out to eat with his parents. Had I been along, it would have been extremely uncomfortable. That is why I'm glad I didn't go.
When it comes to weekends, he sleeps there. He'll spend the night thursday, friday, and saturday. I no longer have a weekend life other than staying in my room. I mean, who honestly would want to be a third wheel every single weekend if you had the option not to be! I don't know if anyone has ever felt being a third wheel while in a relationship. But if you have, I know you know it stinks and it is not pleasant to be in that position.

Melissa