Stress

Stress is becoming something that consumes me. While I love the weekends, they are no becoming filled with stress; and that freaks me out!

Classes are running me into the ground. AND I have my job. Josh and I have become meal dates. That's basically the only time I see him. It's difficult. Phil actually said that Josh is the least whipped boyfriend. I know that's like nothing to anyone else, but for me that's huge. Phil has always said Josh is whipped and I don't think he's ever appreciated or accepted our relationship...aka we just don't mesh well.

So what's my plan to fix all this? Well, to start with I'm taking Saturday night off. I won't be going anywhere but I also won't be responding to anything, should it happen. Will this completely fix it? No. I have a boat load of homework to do and I have tests coming up. It will hopefully help out with the stress load though considering that school work and issues with my job are the culprits of it all!

Classes.

Classes begin tomorrow. I'm nervous, stressed, and don't feel prepared at all.

Prayer

Pray, pray, pray, pray, pray...

All I can say is pray.

I'm not going into detail, but please, in your thoughts and prayers just pray for Jaron Mumm and family.

Birthday and Beyond

So, my birthday evening was great. The day-not so much. Oh well. I worked during the day and made money and left early. Then, I got ready to go to dinner with Josh. We went to the Olive Garden (one of our favorites + Josh had a gift card for it) and each ordered amazing dinners. We each only ate half and took the other half home. Breadsticks and salad were amazing as usual. So, on to the good part... On the way back to Josh's I am just dying to know what he got me. It was like 20 questions and only one answer. "You have to wait and see." The more I ask the longer he says he's going to make me wait to open my gift. Of course, I keep asking questions and then beg to have the time moved up. So, as we pull into his driveway he says "Wait until 10 and you can open it." And I argue back and say "9!" Then he is like, "Okay, 9 but you have to promise you won't open it until 9 or when I say you can open it." So I'm thinking "Fine, whatever..." But no...He had to be a butt about it and purposely leave the stinking bag out on the table right next to where I always put my purse. Yeah... So I see it and of course am thinking "You have got to be kidding me!" I made this promise not to open it and he just had to do that. Apparently I was able to successfully hide every emotion going through my body at that time, because Josh didn't pick up on it. He thought I didn't realize. So, he walks back to his room for something, I don't know, and his mom asks me "Did you see what was on the table?" and the conversation goes on. Josh comes back in and I let my emotions show on purpose. He continues to be a brat and act all innocent like he doesn't have a clue. After going back and forth he decides to let me open it. So we sit down by the table and I open this bag with "Zales" written on it. Out comes this little black box. I'm excited but don't want to rip it apart... So, I open this little black box and find:



So there's my story! I had an amazing birthday with someone I love and just happened to get a beautiful gift from him. If he actually read this, I would say thank you.

August 4, 2008

I'M 20!!! WOO HOO... Now can this year go by really fast so I can be 21? haha.

I'm getting spoiled tonight. Josh and I are going out to the Olive Garden and then I get my gift! No clue what it is, but I can't wait!

It's just sad becasue I leave on Saturday...I am nowhere near ready to go. Haven't started packing clothes or done my door decs... my bad!

Oh well. Josh is supposed to pick me up any minute now so I must go finish getting ready!

With Love,
The Freshly 20 year old!

Summertime...

My summer is flying by...

I have no free days left except Sunday afternoons and everyone knows how motivated you are on a Sunday afternoon!

Friday is Amy's rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. Saturday is Amy and Thomas's wedding. I am excited and very happy that Josh got Friday and Saturday off! Now he can take pictures for me! :-D

This past weekend Josh and I went to Leeanne and Kent's wedding. It was stunning! The ceremony was gorgeous and so was the bride. The bridesmaid dresses were the best dresses I've seen. However, it's a lonely feeling when the only friend you've hung out with and discussed every area of your life with during the summer is now married and moving to Wichita, Kansas. I am honestly happy for the couple! I will be sad to see them leave but know they are going to start a wonderful life together.

Work is going ok. I am ready for it to be over however. It isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life. So, one summer is definitely enough for me. I really like the bank but my boss is a a goober to say the least and is probably the most gossip-y and catty person in the bank. He won't talk to one of the personal bankers and frankly, that's ridiculous! We have the bank president, a commercial loan officer, my boss, another lady who works with commercial loans, two personal bankers and four tellers (at the most) in the bank at one time. It isn't very big so, to not talk to one person because you don't like them is pretty dumb!

Oh well...my summer has flown by, and I'm missing it already and it's not even over!

The Fourth

The Fourth of July weekend was amazing.

First, there was the parade. I completely enjoyed sitting there, getting burnt, and watching the parade. No, I didn't get candy. I need to fit into that darn bridesmaid dress on the 26th. So no candy for me. Oh well!
Then, we went over to the Goeldner's and had some food, talked, swam. Erica and Adam the newlyweds were there and I was ecstatic about that. We were able to talk, relax, and not get involved in the drama.
Finally, Josh got off work AT LAST, came over as I finished getting ready and we headed out to see fireworks. Usually, fireworks are a stressful and not so wonderful time. Mainly because of me and trying to maneuver Josh into finding a parking spot. BUT this year, we went earlier than usual, went to where the whole big group was, so our spot was saved and blankets set out already, and we just relaxed. I was able to give him a foot massage after he worked 10 hours, and the we both laid down and watched the fireworks...with some June bug interruptions of course!
It was great and I really enjoyed it. If only Josh didn't have to work all day.

My mission for the week is:
a) to find out what is going to happen to my iHome
or
b) begin on my project for the summer - my door decs!